Scared. and Lucky.


Two months ago, I leaped. I leaped big. Out of the college bubble and into the real world.

For the most part it’s not too different. Until it’s terrifying.

Sitting in Starbucks this morning, I began to overwhelm myself with thoughts that will get me nowhere. Thoughts of bills, insurances, health codes, taxes, how will I ever get a small business loan without a degree. You know, the average thoughts of an 18 year old.

And then a former teacher of mine came up to me and said, “Look at you, not a care in the world. You can sit here with a warm beverage listening to great music and people watch in the middle of your workday for as long as you’d like.”

He was right. It was just what I needed to hear at that moment. A reminder of how lucky I am. I get to live in a house I love, with people I love. I have a job (multiple, actually). I run a business (woohoo for being a control freak loving the whole being my own boss thing!). And I’m only 18.

I have to get myself out of the sooner is better mentality. I have to slow down and do things right.

On days like this, I take full advantage of the ocean that is so close. Today was especially helpful because I remembered that it’s been one month since Hurricane Sandy. A month ago, we didn’t know if this little bit of magic would still be here for us to enjoy. The beaches are back, and along with them came my calm. If something as big as the ocean can exist, so can I.

Thank you for reading my talking to myself. More to come on the latest of my business ventures.





Author: audrey

I bake photograph smile drink sparkling water eat cucumbers& goldfish wake up at 6:30 dance clean have hair with a personality adore kids

2 thoughts on “Scared. and Lucky.

  1. Such an insightful post Audrey! No matter what you take on in your life, you will do well at it and on off-chance that things don’t work out, I know you will learn from it and move on to bigger and better. Looking forward to hearing about your latest business ventures. Being scared is good, it mobilizes you :)

  2. Wow… I got chills reading that and seeing that gorgeous picture!!!! You are on your own path and we all question our decisions but you will surely see down the road that this is the right choice!

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